One Year Later

A year ago, on this very day, my dream crashed before my very eyes. My plan to become who I want to be in the future disintegrated into tiny specks of dust, blocking my view of the horizon that lay before me. Disoriented, I pulled back and ran away as far as possible. The truth was just too bad to be true. I failed myself. I failed my family. I failed everyone who believed in me. The pain was too unbearable. There’s no anesthesia.

I used to imagine myself in the corporate world – balancing sheets, preparing income statements, and doing everything that has something to do with accounting. And why not? I originally intended to pursue a degree in Accountancy. But something wouldn’t let me. And that’s the next-to-the-penultimate period of the story. Goodbye, dream.

When I got home that day, I came across a bitter quotation:

Reality can destroy the dream; why shouldn’t the dream destroy the reality?

- George Moore

It’s as if this whole sentence empathized with the unstable state of my emotions. But it still felt like trudging a wild river in a debilitated raft. I was certain I couldn’t move on.

But I did, once I enrolled as a BS Chemistry student.

Fast forward.

I only have a vague recollection of my first day as a chemistry major. But I’m willing to bet a thousand dollars that nothing else made me happier than studying about atoms. It took me almost a year to realize what happened. God used His invisible hands to place me in the field that’s best for me. I was just weak to accept my fate. Or I was just to blind to see it. But now, I moved on… with all the atoms in my body.

Posted on May 23, 2010 | Filed in College Chronicles | Comments (7)

7 Comments

Shayne Linden Jois
[May 23, 2010 at 10:52 AM]

BS Chemistry is a tough course. Basic Chemistry alone is a super demanding subject. I honestly don’t understand most of the things my high school Chem teacher taught us until I got my Chemistry minor in college. Ha ha! I’m glad you’ve moved on. Some of my friends still have grudges on FEU ’cause they failed the qualifying exams, you know. Maybe, unlike you, they still haven’t found the field that’s best for them.
Sasarai
[May 24, 2010 at 1:03 AM]

That’s all right Rob! You know, hanga nga ako sau kasi nga Chem Student ka.. and based from your previous posts date, you get greater grades than mine! Kaya mo yan! KAW PA! ^_^
Riorigent Archymiste Elvanjeheim
[May 25, 2010 at 7:15 AM]

Goodness, is it some divine intervention that I stumbled upon your website!? This post made me remember all sorts of things. During my high school, I was so enticed by chemistry. I then decided that I shall pursue a chemistry career. Have I told you how I got to study chemistry in PLM? Haha, if not, we shall have a chat with Nina again…
Amy B.
[June 5, 2010 at 4:45 PM]

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Emily N.
[June 9, 2010 at 10:11 AM]

Hi, I’m very interested in Linux but Im a Super Newbie and I’m having trouble deciding on the right distribution for me (Havent you heard this a million times?) anyway here is my problem, I need a distribution that can switch between reading and writing in English and Japanese (Japanese Language Support) with out restarting the operating system.
kg
[August 5, 2010 at 10:25 AM]

hi rob! it’s been a while!

i’m glad you’re okay with the “changes” in plan. ganun talaga ang buhay. you;re still young and there’re a lot of things you can do.