Monthly Archives: October 2008

This is my new schedule for the second semester of my first year in college:

Ilang araw na rin akong matamlay. Oo, ngumingiti ako. Tumatawa pa nga eh. Pero iba pa rin ang pakiramdam sa loob. Sabi nga nila, maloloko mo ang iba ngunit hindi ang sarili mo. Kahit anong libangan pa ang pasukan ko – mag-blog, mag-DOTA, magbasa – hindi pa rin ako nilulubayan ng lungkot na ako rin naman ang may kakagawan.

Okt. 14, 2008. Gumuho ang lahat ng mga pangarap ko. Tulad ng inaasahan ko, hindi naging mataas ang grado ko sa Math. Nag-aral naman akong mabuti at ginawa ko ang aking makakaya ngunit di pa rin ‘yun sapat para magbunga. Siguro di ko na kasalanan ‘yun – at mas lalong di kasalanan ng guro ko. Siguro ganun lang talaga ‘yun.

Dahil dito, di gaanong naging masaya ang sembreak ko. Para bang ‘yung dati kong sigla ay kasabay naglaho ng aking pangarap. Mahirap pala ‘yung pakiramdam na ikaw na mismo ang bumigo sa sarili mo.

Pero ngayon, ok na ko. Wala lang, napagtanto ko kasi na maliit na bagay lang ang math para masira ang buhay ko. Tsaka hindi pa naman huli ang lahat. Marami pang panahon para sa pagbabago at pagpapaunlad sa sarili. Siguro isa lamang itong pagsubok na kailangan kong lampasan. Dumadating naman talaga ang mga ‘yan sa buhay ng tao, lalung-lalo pa’t kolehiyo na ako. Sabi nga nila, sa college, walang kompetisyon, di tulad sa high school. Sa college, ang kalaban mo lang ay ang sarili mo – kung hahayaan mo bang magpatalo ka sa problema mo o gagamitin mo ito bilang tulay patungo sa gusto mong marating.

Pagbubutihan ko na lang ngayong 2nd Sem. Hindi pa naman huli ang lahat lalung-lalo na’t mayroon pang pitong sem na paparating. Masyado pang maaga para sumuko. Kaya ko ‘to!

Honestly, studying in Pamantasan ng Lungsod ng Maynila is not easy. I experienced challenges I never faced before. These made me learn lessons and become a better person. My first semester in college is just OK. I got good grades but I’m not really contented and fulfilled.

English Proficiency Instruction I (ENG 11). I got 1.50, a grade higher than what I expected. I thought that I would get a 2.00 or lower because of my not-so-good quizzes. But God, together with my professor, has been very good.

Introduction to Philosophy and Ethics (ETHICS 11).  When I received my class card in Philosophy, I thought that I was in a wild dream – a good dream, that is – because I got an excellent grade of 1.00. It is apparent that four months of hard work reaped a bountiful harvest.

Sining ng Komunikasyon (FIL 11).This is the first class card that I received. I got my grade (1.25) in this subject on the third day of the Final Examinations. This marked my first victory in college.

Philippine History and Government (HIST 11). Let’s look on the brighter side. I got a 1.00 in this subject! And I’m really happy about it.

College Algebra (MATH 11). As I half-expected, I got a 2.25 in this subject. This is my lowest grade this semester. I know that I’m blessed because, at least, I got a passing grade, which is hard to achieve in this subject. But I still feel bad because this may signal the end of my ambition to become a CPA (BSA students in PLM should have a grade of 2.00 in Math subjects). I didn’t make it. And it feels bad.

Fundamentals of Science I (NAT SCI 11). I got 1.75, lower than what I expected. Although I scored good, it only totalled to this score. But it’s still good, anyway. (This is my second-to-the-lowest grade).

Civic Welfare Training Service (NSTP).  I also got a 1.00 in this subject.

Foundation of Physical Activities (PE 11). Although I got absent once, I still managed to get 1.25.

Foundations of Behavioral Sciences (SOC SCI 11). As I predicted, I got 1.25. And it is a very good grade.

To sum it up, I got a General Weighted Average (GWA) of 1.43. This is a good sign since 143 means “I love you.”

This is just the start. There are still seven semesters to come. Next sem would be time for improvement and maturation. I hope to get better marks. And I’ll make sure I will.

P.S. I posted this to relieve my emotion. Honestly, I don’t feel good (because of my Math grade). I hope it’ll get better.